I’m pretty sure that fear is involved in what one wants to be the most.
Maybe it’s just me, but I know that as far as my character is concerned, I fear being that type of character that I least want to be: and that is being a violent person.
“Why do you fear being a violent person if you aren’t violent?” people ask.
I think it’s similar to the fear of being a bad parent: there are many good parents who fear being a bad parent, because they care deeply about making sure that they are as good of a parent as they can be.
I think I’m similar with violence.
I really don’t want to be a violent person, so I fear it.
I know someone is going to misinterpret that to mean that I’m saying that I’m a “tea kettle ready to burst at any moment”, but I can live with that.
I’m merely an expressive person, and I’ll let other people “cower in fear” at me if they wish…
Excerpt from “Torture”.
Offend the Fuck Out of People.
Moral Requirements and Passion.
A Memorandum on Dreams.
Free Will Contradictions.