I create work that I want to create.
I don’t create work simply for other people’s enjoyment.
So as far as other people are concerned, I only care about money.
I’m happy with everything else.
But how do you reconcile not caring about fans, but caring about money, which is a direct result of fans?
You have to be pretty damn talented and lucky.
And my heart is optimistic about my luck…
So if I don’t care about what my fans think about my work (except for “Thanks”) as far as input is concerned, then what does this mean?
I suppose this simply means that I am internally motivated, and that “money” is what I’m looking for from my audience, as verbal praise makes me uncomfortable enough to stop sharing.
Praise is good, but I don’t want to write just to get praise, nor do I want to swim in it.
I suppose luck, as fate would have it, will dictate the course of my financial status, as my whims will be what dictate the course of my expressive creativity, and I never want to create something solely to get paid, without getting some kind of psychic pleasure from my visions, and creating them, and then being done with them, but never forgetting them…
It is very confusing to be an artist…